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Thursday, May 29, 2008
holidays week one. i think im getting lazy.went to watch Indiana Jones on saturday with Joseph Barn JKoh and Winston. the plot was funky. way funkier than his first 3 shows. but somehow it being an Indy movie kinda remedied all of that. and it was essentially really good.went home, forced myself to sleep, then went for hillsongs.got there late so the place was packed and we had to like squeeze infront. met Bryan and Junyi and lots and lots of other people. like lots. halfway through the concert Winston had this crazy idea of lifting people like high above the crowd. i love crazy ideas. if not destructive they usually end up fun. and sometimes destructive and fun go hand in hand.lifted me then Lawrence then Joseph then Bryan then Junyi then JKoh then Barnabas then Winston. tried to lift Ben. couldnt lift Ben. dude you gotta let us at least try.altar call and Winston went up. im proud of you man. God will always be waiting for you if you find yourself ready to turn to Him one day.so the Hillsong United band was great. technically, yeahhh. but it seemed like there was something more to just music. just great, perfectly orchestrated melodies. there was something to believe in that night. and maybe there wasnt a huge spiritual revelation or a revival or anything...but that faith just made that night special.took class photos with Junyi and ex 2.7 people and then went with John for movie night.got there and met Evan Darius Vanessa and Yanlin. I Am Legend ended. totally devastating cus it was like the movie i really wanted to watch. Will Smith is seriously cool. went to watch guitar hero. drank coffee. watched Stardust. not so exciting after you know the endings kinda anticlimatic. but still entertaining. drank more coffee. watched hairspray. found out im pretty much coffee-immune near the end of the show cus i was like still barely staying awake but my eyes couldnt open anymore. kinda freaky.fell asleep. the ROL was dead cold. woke up at like 5 and i couldnt move my foot. at all. it was like totally non functional. kicked it and didnt feel anything.had i been more awake, i wouldve been really freaked out.woke up at 7 and found myself behind a curtain onstage. the stage has like real comfy carpeting. didnt really expect to get that 3 hours of sleep so was kinda grateful.went for breakfast with Vanessa and Yanlin where i didnt eat anything. then went for FL. uncle Jimmy came for movie night but ponned CG time and so did our 3 other CGLs.played truth or dare with Evan and Yanlin. seriously that game does destroy lives. ehhh. what comes out in the circle stays in the circle. SERIOUSLY!!went to Evans house after that. fell asleep on his bed. its real comfy.training started on monday. and i dont really know why but holiday trainings seem...nicer. happier.woke up for gym today. then did 2.4. then slept in school for like 5 hours until 2 then went for training at macritchie. then ran. then came home for home gym. 2 days a week of this stuff with normal training and gym on other days and ill get alot done this holidays.provided i survive it.i cant believe its already thursday of week one of the holidays. theyre slowly slowly slipping away. terrible feeling. and i still have a pile of every holiday assignment i havent done. which is everything. fudge.why are holidays so much work.hmm. today a song which makes me think. Bon Jovi does real well in a song that speaks of a man without God in his life.I lost all faith in my God, in His religion too I told the angels they could sing their songs to someone new I lost all trust in my friends, I watched my heart turn to stone I thought that I was left to walk this wicked world alone Tonight I'll dust myself off Tonight I'll suck my gut in I'll face the night and I'll pretend I got something to believe in And I had lost touch with reason I watched life criticize the truth Been waiting for a miracle I know you have too Though I know I won't win I'll take this one on the chin We'll raise a toast and I'll pretend I got something to believe in If I don't believe in JesusHow can I believe the Pope? If I don't believe in heroinHow can I believe in dope? If there's nothing but survivalHow can I believe in sin In a world that gives you nothing We need something to believe inI need something to believe inSomething to Believe InBon JoviThese Daysi love how Richie goes heh heh heh heh. when he doesnt do it live its like a big portion of the songs gone.anyway it kinda depicts a pretty dark scene. and one which parallels sermons ive heard before about a God-shaped hole in ones heart. but a different side of it. cus you can try to walk away from life and turn your back on the world. and try to push aside all your problems and fabricate something that gives you happiness and achievement. but theres always gonna be that God-shaped hole in your heart.and really in the end all that can fill it is...yes, God. big hint in the name there.we all need something to believe in. but ultimately, only God's love is worth putting your complete trust in. for it is something that will never disappoint.