my tablet pen has refused to continue working, so no more of those word messes. haha...
been feeling kinda sick...must be all that ricola.
starting next week its gonna be intense SYF training...3.30-8 everyday. have to work hard for the gold...its only about 2 weeks away. Kenneths letter really inspires...
nothing much to blog about anymore...my lifes become pretty uneventful. still, thats better that an eventful life full of problems and depressing.
I woke up today in London as the plane was touching down All I could think about was monday and maybe ill be back around If this keeps me away much longer I dont know what I will do Youve got to understand its a hard life That im going through And when the night falls in around me I dont think ill make it through I'll use your light to guide the way cus all I think about is you Well LAs is getting kinda crazy and New york is getting kinda cold I keep my head from geting lazy I just cant wait to get back home And all these days I spend away I'll make up for this I swear I need your love to hold me up When its all too much to bear And when the night falls in around me I dont think ill make it through I'll use your light to guide the way cus all I think about is you And all these days I spend away I'll make up for this I swear I need your love to hold me up when its all too much to bear When the night falls in around me I dont think ill make it through I'll use your light to guide the way cus all I think about is you
Landing In London 3 Doors Down Seventeen Days
would she know?
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
you know what. it just sucks.
it was cool when you were all just joking about it. i mean, i know im a little...freak sometimes. Kenneth, Thierry...and then My Yap. and he wasnt joking. really, i try my best not to be like that...and when i say stop it you just wont let it go. so maybe im not the model guy. maybe i totally suck at kicking a ball around a field. does that mean im gay???
i guess its fun to just keep calling someone something they dont like, just to watch them get pissed and all. but what if it was you? you wont imagine the hurt they feel being called something theyve tried to hard not to be. im really really trying hard not to be like that...cant ANYONE just give me a chance instead of labeling me straight away?
cus if you choose to just piss me off, watch it.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Always by Bon Jovi...okay this isnt as nice as the first one...haha
got a haircut. stupid barber cut away more hair than i wanted him to!! but at least he left the finge uncut. next time, i buy a wig.
first week of term 2s over. what have i learnt? nothing. i seriously have to start reading my textbooks and paying attention if i even want to get a 75% average...
go watch Chad Vader!! its hilarious!!
One song, Glory One song, before I go glory, one song to leave behind Find one song, one last refrain glory, from the pretty boy front man who wasted opportunity One song, he had the world at his feet glory, in the eyes of a young girl a young girl Find glory, beyond the cheap colored lights One song, before the sun sets glory, on another empty life Time flies time dies Glory One blaze of glory One blaze of glory Glory Find glory, in a song that rings true truth like a blazing fire an eternal flame Find, one song, a song about love glory, from the soul of a young man a young man Find, the one song before the virus takes hold, glory like it sunset One song to redeem this empty life Time flies and then no need to endure anymore Time dies
One Song Glory Adam Pascal Rent Soundtrack
Friday, March 23, 2007
Sunday Morning...lyrics jumbled up...haha...i was bored.
okay...for the sake of my identity, this blogskins back...seriously, im straight!!
yeah. identity crisis.
first week of schools over. what have i learnt? nothing. im never getting into IB.
and congrats on Ben on joining choir!!
Thursday, March 22, 2007
okay...part 2 of that quiz yesterday
1.Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. my fringe is longer than any of my teachers this year, including the female teachers. and im just getting started. i wish i could juggle im a sucker for food i think Gerard Way is hot my vocab is a mystery. i read 5 books a month and 4 are comics. anything that has to do with moving a ball, i suck at it i believe the shampoo i use affects the outcome of my day im gonna be in trouble soon. VERY soon. im actually reconsidering track ive been sick of com games since p6 i know girls with a lower range than me i know what arachibutyrophobia is. when it comes to studies, the outcome defines the means id rather live with my maths teacher than my dad i wish i was more sporty
3 names you go by: marcus makesetee umm... theofelicious?
3parts of your heritage: fluent singlish, shouting at the TV during news, checking 4d scores on saturday during commercials of chinese dramas. world, meet my relatives.
3 things that scare you: Gavin Ang. JonKoh. night games.
3 of your everyday essentials: O, H2O, food
3 things you are wearing now: shirt, bermudas, school badge
3 of your favourite bands: Linkin Park, U2, Evanescence
3 of your favourite songs: Solitaire - Clay Aiken Awake - Josh Groban Over You - Chris Daughtry
3 of your favourite songs(non-lyrical): Session - Linkin Park Ascension of the Spirit - Evanescence Janger!!
3 of your favourite colours: black, pink, white
3 things you want in a relationship besides love: fun, trust,
2 truths and a lie: i love singing, im straight, im gay. go figure
3 things about the opposite sex that appeals to you: their voices, their hair, their sensitivity
3 of your favourite hobbies: singing, sleeping, msning
3 of your favourite ice-cream flavours: rocky road, blueberry cheesecake, strawberry
3 things you want really badly now: a nice long holiday, a new phone, a less emotional mindset
3 things you want to do before you die: make up for everything ive screwed up, do well in some sport, visit paris!!
3 people who have changed me quite a bit: Clay Aiken, Clement, Grace
3 things I want to learn/ learning: how to pay at least conscious attention in class, basketball skills, how to juggle
3 things that I will treasure most for quite a long time: an iPod, if i had one, a person i could confide fully in, a sense of humour, if i got mine back
let it rain let it rain let it rain!!
im in lots of trouble now...i owe a maths file, a geog file, a history file, 3 maths assignments, and possibly a class key...
oh well. ill take care of them tomorrow.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
1. How old do you wish you were? 18...? 2.Where you when 9/11 happened? ...when did 9/11 happen...? 3. What do you do when vending machines steal your money? vow never to buy from that machine again 4. Do you consider yourself kind? thats not really for me to say... 5. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be? mmm...some place where it wont hurt when i have to laser it off... 6. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? italian!! 7. Do you know your neighbours? neighbours...? you mean those disturbing people...? 8. What do you consider a vacation? a holiday when everything is well in my world 9. Do you follow your horoscope? ...har? 10. Would you move for the person you love? definately 11. Are you touchy feely? ...what???? 12. Do you believe that opposites attract? yeah... 13. Dream job? mmm...realistically, a CD shop owner...or a vocal coach like Kam!! 14. Favourite tv channels? ...just sad 15. Favourite place to go on weekends? ...church? its the only place i go on weekends... 16. Showers or baths? you mean...do i? ummm...duh!!! 17. Do you paint your nails? oh my gosh...howd you know?!?! 18. Do you trust people easily? yeah...way to easily 19. What are your phobias? erm... 21. Do you keep a handwritten journal? yeah... 22. Where would you rather be now? heaven 23. Who makes you warm and fuzzy? love 24. Heavy or light sleeper? heavy... 25. Are you paranoid? YEAH 26. Are you impatient? i guess so... 27. Who can you relate to? uhh...Wan Feng? or any other emo dude... 28. How do you feel about interracial couples? fine. 29. Have you been burnt by love? scorched 30. What's your pick-up line? ...i dont do pick up lines... 31. What's your main ringtone on your mobile? my phone is incapable of producing sound besides calls... 32. What were you doing at midnight last night? snoring? 33. What did the last text on your mobile say? 'turn down the music!!!' 34. Whose bed did you sleep in last night? my bed...? 35. What colour shirt are you wearing? yellow 36. Most recent movie you watched? the pursit of happyness 37. Name three things you have on at all times. handphone, wallet, until i lost it again...and thats all? 38. What colour are your bedsheets? ...uhhh...you know, im not really sure... 39. How much cash do you have right now? ...none? 40. What's your favourite part of the chicken? the feathers 42. I can't wait till: my dad no longer has a grip on my existance 43. What did you have for dinner last night? ...yakult? 44. How tall are you barefoot? 164cm 45. Do you own a gun? BANG. im dead. 46. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? vodka. 47. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? mcdonalds 48. Last thing you ate? a donut 49. What songs do you sing in the shower?uhh... Fall to Pieces - Avil Lavigne Come On - Ben Jelen Diary Of Jane - Breaking Benjamin Home - Chris Daughtry Over You - Chris Daughtry 50 plus Clay Aiken songs Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry) - Craig David My Immortal - Evanescence Fergalicious - Fergie Chariot - Gavin DeGraw Lips of an Angel - Hinder You're Beautiful - James Blunt 10 plus Jesse McCartney songs I Belong To Me - Jessica Simpson Too Little Too Late - Jojo 20 plus Josh Groban songs What Goes Around.../...Comes Around Interlude - Justin Timberlake 10 plus Keane songs A Moment Like This - Kelly Clarkson 40 plus Linkin Park songs Must Get Out - Maroon 5 20 plus MCR songs Far Away - Nickelback One Song Glory - Adam Pascal It Ends Tonight - The All-American Rejects Pop Princess - The Click Five 30 plus U2 songs Burn - Usher A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton 10 plus Westlife songs 50 plus worship songs No Promises - Shayne Ward and much more... 50. Last thing that made you laugh? James Tan 51. Worst injury you ever had? that cut when i was 3... 52. Does someone have a crush on you? does the sun revolve around the earth? 53. What's your favourite candy? HARIBO!! 54. What song do you want played at your funeral? Lover All Alone - Clay Aiken
okay...i was bored, i was depressed, i didnt want to do my homework...
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
darn...school sucks already.
exams are in 5 weeks time. i really have to start studying this term. or ill fail maths and Psci again...
crap.ive got nothing to blog about anymore.
sometimes its great. sometimes its like youre just passing time, waiting for something better. show me this is worth holding on to, like i know it is.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
beautiful song by Josh Groban.
went with Kenneth, Ben and (2.7 indo scholars-Kester) to watch movies...we watched blood and chocolate and the pursuit of happyness. blood and chocolate wasnt what i expected at all, but it was pretty cool anyway. the pursuit of happyness was beautiful...although i didnt enjoy it so much cus i was starving and Kenneth deprived me of chicken wings...
last day of the holiday. darn. well it hasnt really been a holiday; ive only had 2 days of rest. but thats much more than lots of people get so i guess i should be grateful. and its been kinda fun...even if the funs mostly school-related stuff.
fwens?
Staring at a maple leaf Leaning on the mother tree I said to myself we all lost touch Your favorite fruit is chocolate covered cherries And seedless watermelon Nothing from the ground is good enough Body rised It puts over me
Remember seeking moons rebirth Rains made mirrors of the earth The sun was just yellow energy It is a living promise land Even over fields of sand Seasons fill my mind and cover me From bringing back More than a memory
You'll be my vacation away from this place You know what I want Holding that cup,It's pouring over The sides Make me wanna spread my arms and fly
Oh chariot your golden waves are walking down upon this face Oh chariot I'm singing out loud To guide me Give me your Strength
Chariot Gavin DeGraw Chariot this songs just stuck in my head
Friday, March 16, 2007
so thats how much i mean to you.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
back from Desaru. it was pretty great actually...apart from Thierry calling someone a faggot every 15 seconds and saying something disturbing every 5 sentences. and JonKoh stealing the blanket and shoving Kenneth and me off the bed. and Siva eating my pizza. and those poor hermit crabs dying before i had a chance to release them. and me not going over that high wall in the obstacle course cus i was the only one wearing jeans.
but it was fun. i actually learnt stuff about nature and Desaru. those tour guides must be paid really well...
dear daddy picked me up after the bus dropped us off at school today. 10 minutes after i step into the house he shouts. shout shout shout. i wanna grab something really long and sharp and jam it down is damn throat and watch him bleed to death.
'dont make me angry'. damn you, piss yourself off however you care. youre not my dad anymore. you never were. youre just that analretentive nut who seizes every opportune moment to direct my path the way you want it. you want me to grow up to be just like YOU? id DIE before that happens.
sometimes i really wonder why i care anyway. i try to care and i try to make things better, but no one else seems to want to. i feel like im the only one who cares. and im sick of that.
if you wanna tell me you care, show me you do. if not your words are just plain pointless.
There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy Too many times that Ive held on when I needed to push away Afraid to say what was on my mind Afraid to say what I need to say Too many things that you've said about me when Im not around You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down But Ive had too many standoffs with you its about as much as I can stand So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long All I know is that all I want is to feel like Im not stepped on There are so many things you say that make me feel you've crossed the line What goes up will surely fall and Im counting down the time Cause Ive had so many standoffs with you its about as much as I can stand So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine I know I'll never trust a single thing you say you knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway And all your lies have got you floating up above us all but what goes up has got to fall One minute you're on top The next you're not, watch it drop Making your heart stop Just before you hit the floor One minute you're on top Next you're not, missed your shot Making you're heart stop You think you've won And then its all gone
Hit The Floor Linkin Park Meteora
'but what goes up has got to fall' im just waiting till the upper hand is mine.
welcome home. ive been away so long that ive forgotten how 'wonderful' it is.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
the first term of 2007 comes to a close. what have i learnt?
- Phee just seems to keep coming back - most choirgoers dont have a clue what singing is about - studying the day before your exams is no way to get a good average - religion is a dangerous thing to debate about - emotions are explosive. they tear your heart up one day and put it back together in another. - when your teacher says turn back cus of the water level, trust him - rejection hurts...but ignore the world and itll ignore you - never play street soccer on a muddy field - emo: not the way to go - Chris Daughtry ROCKS!!
yeah...my experiences in 2 months or so. valuable lessons...
choir was so stressful today...everything that could have gone wrong went terribly wrong. SYF might screw if we dont really start putting in effort. taught the 'tenors' tone...its way creepy how im more and more like Clement.
okay...Desaru in a few hours time...hopefully well actually get there this time. im rooming with Thierry and Russell. NO WAY in sleeping with Theirry...he gets the single bed...ill bunk with Russell. at least my 3 nights there would be safe...
Staring out into the night trying to hide the pain Going to the place where love and feeling good don't ever cost a thing and the pain you feels a different kind of pain The miles getting longer, it seems the closer I get to you I've not always been the best man or friend for you but your love remains true And I don't know why you always seem to give me another try Be careful what you wish for cus you just might get it all You just might get it all and then some you don't want Be careful what you wish for cus you just might get it all You just might get it all I'm going home to the place where I belong where your love has always been enough for me I'm not running from no I think you've got me all wrong I don't regret this life I choose for me But these places and these faces are getting old so I'm going home
Home Chris Daughtry Daughtry another lovable song. it just reflects my feelings like a mirror...
- 'where your love has always been enough for me'
cheeziness aside,
i love you.
Monday, March 05, 2007
darn...my first term results suck. better study a little next term.
OEP in 2 days time...mmm...this time without Liang Chew Man...maybe Dave Tay will stop us for another weird phobia.
really nothing to blog about...
thanks for caring so much just to let you know that i care too
Friday, March 02, 2007
ooohh...i feel like puking...darn E coli
life science symposium was pretty great. i spent a day explain the zone of inhibition to sec ones, other visitors and miss lawrance *shudder* and running around school with hannlam visiting other exhibits. i got a terranium!! yeah...hope this one doesnt die like the last one did. i learnt lots...i just cant remember much. except that the stuff put in babys diaper is a weaker version of something that may make you impotent if you touch it...ironic, huh...haha
dissection. if it wasnt for that id study bio. poor frogs probably didnt know it was their day of doom until right before they got knocked out by chloroform. Jack cut open their chest and shoved a pike down their throat to show how it was connected and all...erk...what a horrible way to die.
still...i swear im gonna sit through it next year without squealing.
cant find that stupid cable now...when ill do ill post pics, kay?
feeling pretty happy...lifes good right now =)...except for the E coli infection
Listen, to the song here in my heart A melody I've start but can't complete Listen, to the sound from deep within It's only beginning to find release Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard They will not be pushed aside and turned Into your own all cause you won't Listen.... You should have listened There is someone here inside Someone I'd thought had died So long ago Ohh I'm free now and my dreams to be heard They will not be pushed aside on words Into your arms All cause you won't Listen Listen I am alone at a crossroads I'm not at home in my own home And I tried and tried to say whats on my mind You should have known Oh Now I'm done believin' you You don't know what I'm feelin' I'm more than what you made of me I followed the voice you gave to me But now I gotta find my own I don't know where I belong but i'll be movin' on If you don't If you won't Listen to the song here in my heart A melody I've start but I will complete Oh Now i'm done believin you' you dont know what I'm feelin' I'm more than what you made of me I followed the voice you think you gave to me But now I gotta find my own
Listen Beyonce Knowles B'Day / Dreamgirls Soundtrack okay, not usually the type of song i like...diva and all...but this one kinda blew me away. i was like woah. i never knew Beyonce could do that...totally American Idol type with lots of power...
but okay...this song has absolutely no meaning for me...haha...so for once, a song that doesnt reflect my emotions.
