I give my all to You

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

wooohooo holiday tomorrow. with that in mind the past 3 days just flew by.

went for training on friday. only Leon Ryan Kengjie and Brandon there. felt so out of place. but theres something really nice about a simple quiet training with no one around.

i got quite alot done in 2 hours. so happy.

now theres gym every morning =) and my hands are swollen and stuff but the puss is starting to come out so the chinups didnt hurt so much today.

i swear by year 6 ill do one arm chin-ups.

church on sunday. so quiet cus like everyone either didnt come or went home early. sighh.

had lunch with Evan Zachary and Darius. Zachary eats freaking 3 donuts. thats like sinful. i couldnt resist them.

saw this HUGE snail when running with Joseph and Lawrence before art. seriously it was like grossly huge. almost the size of Josephs shoe. and when we lifted it up it gurgled air bubbles.

SSSSSICKKKKKKKK.

pictures will come up when i get them. its a must see thing.

tried to finish the art piece ive been working on for...uhhh...2 days during art. kinda distracted cus Joseph and fruitips dude kept making voices. but it was worth it. heh heh.

Theodores piece is kickass. and Farlow says its just okayyyy. dang mine has gotta be so much better than it is now if i even wanna pass. Siens was good and he just crumpled it up and redid it. ouchies.

did 2.4 after art. no wonder Zi Ken thinks im crazy. but my average time is around 10 minutes. i MUST get it down to 8.

exams start on friday. Langarts and IHS. strangely im calm.

well not so strange actually. exams have never really stressed me out. but i have to do well this term. or at least considerably better than last term. cus my results are the only things my dad can bug me about.

liberty, there go i if my results > 70%.

ahhh well.

the greatest guitarist ever. or so labelled by rolling stones. but few people refute that. name a 'best vocalist' and people will argue. name the 'top 5 guitarists' and people will argue too. but when you call this dude the best most people just cant help but agree.

and its no wonder. he really is the best.

Anger, he smiles, towering
In shiny metallic purple armor
Green jealousy, envy waits behind him
Her fiery green gown sneers at the grassy ground

Blue are the life giving waters, taken for granted
They quietly understand.
While the once happy turquoise armies lay opposite ready
But wonder why the fight is on

But they're are all
Bold as love
They're all bold as love
Yeah, they're all bold as love
Just ask the axis

My red is so confident, that he flashes
Tokens of war and ribbons of euphoria
Orange is young and full of daring
But very unsteady for the first go around

My Yellow in this case is not so mellow
In fact I'm trying to say,it's frightened like me
And all these emotions of mine keep holding me from
Giving my life to a rainbow like you

But I'm
I'm bold as love
Well I'm bold, bold as love
Hear me talking
I'm bold as love
Just ask the axis
He knows everything

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah!

Bold as Love
The Jimi Hendrix Experience
Axis: Bold as Love

Jimi Hendrix!!!!

okayyy...i have to admit i dont really like his voice as much as i do most contemporary singers...but it fits the guitar. and dang the guitars good.

RIP. much respect.

John Mayer covered this song. not as good...but i like it too.

no training until after exams. i will spend my labour day in the gym.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

weather like this just promotes depression. and if it wasnt for the .15-induced hyperness i probably wouldve sunk there already.

thank God for the spastic nature of my class.

exams are coming. dang it. a term seems so long but somehow the exams seem to creep up so fast. and by the time you realise it youre a week away...with almost everything unstudied.

...okayy EVERYTHING unstudied.

anyway i have to do well this term. or im really gonna be in big trouble. big big trouble.

and the exam week takes a toll on physical fitness too. morning gyms just chinups. and im not good at chinups. i need to get a bar soon.

and what happened to daily 2.4; weve only done 2 days and just sprinted for the rest.

i feel so unfit. i swear right after the exams workout times gonna go to 4 hours a day. plus alternate day 4.5s.

sighh. without training life seems quieter.

chem lessons are super fun. especially since i dont take them.

mr norman: ...so i got you the answers for the worksheet. okayy class?
class: thank you mr norman!!!
mr norman: ...my name is not norman!!!!

love teachers like those.

just thought of something i really havent let myself deal with until now. probably cus i knew it would be totally depressing. but yeahhh. i dont know if you read this blog anymore...but i just had to say this somewhere.

miss you.

Sister, sister, has it come to this
Are we stangers to each other now?
Sister, tell me what the problem is
And I'll try to make it right somehow
You're the one that used to keep us all together
Now you feel that it is gone forever

Sister, sister, don't avert your eyes
Don't pretend the tears aren't gonna fall
Sister, why you acting so suprised
And don't you believe in me at all?
I know why you be expecting disappointment
But I'm here today to right these wrongs

Help me see I've got you right by my side
Sister of mine
And when you look to me you see you won't be denied
I'll make it right this time.

Trust in me that things will work out fine
Sister

Help me see I've got you right by my side
And when you look to me you see you won't be denied
Trust in me that things will work out just fine
Sister of mine

Sister, Sister
Constantine Maroulis
Constantine

did i say before that thats an awesome album?

its fine no matter what happens. you told me before...and now i promise you we will ALWAYS be friends. cus youre like a sister to me =)

Monday, April 21, 2008

i hate mondays.

well actually not really. most mondays are pretty slack. just that the 4 days after that arent.

last canoeing session on thursday last week. i discover C-rowing is all in the mind. confidence and center-of-gravity. yeahhh. once you lose one of them youre pretty much done for.

went to watch the Forbidden Kingdom with Ben and Nong after school and 2.4 on friday. typical Jackie Chan show except with Jet Li in it. it was amusing though. and the plot ending wasnt all that bad.

tried to go home after that but i couldnt resist the topman. so Nong bought be a shirt as an early birthday present. thanks Nong =) i owe you a huge present now.

went to Josephs house on saturday. realised i could do 9 chin ups. yeahh baby after only 2 weeks.

went to Matthews house and Barn played through the song again. honestly its turning out really nice...much better than his previous works thats for sure. now it needs a working title.

went to wrestle in the sand pit. hahar that was fun. cut my foot on curb. went back to Josephs house to sleep.

went to church the next day with them. borrowed his shirt cus the shirt i brought looked just like the one he wanted to wear. i felt like a PE teacher.

jammed with Evan in the ROL. did i ever mention Evans super pro. Barn recruits Evan.

went for lunch and we walked home. did the usual 4.5 after that. 22 minutes. one minute slower cus of the stupid cut on my foot. dang it.

got my braces off today. feels so good.

ive felt super bored lately. cus now canoeing trainings been delayed until after exams =( and ive got lots of free time after study.

soooo...i read peoples blog history. and i find its pretty amusing. seriously each individuals life is like a story and youre reading chapter by chapter up to the point which is being written right now. and you get to see past events and how its affected that person. its like watching someones life in episodes.

if thats so i wonder which arc in my life im at right now.

there hasnt been a new song up here for sometime now.

when i first heard their singles i thought Paramore wasnt anything much. but after hearing their live album i gotta admit i was wrong about them.

plus they covered U2s Sunday Bloody Sunday. how can i not respect them

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me
This is what I need, please

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard a sound, a sound of my only hope
This time
I will be listening

Sing us a song
And we'll sing back to you
We could sing our own
But what would it be without you?

This heart, it beats
Beats for only you
This heart, it beats
Beats for only you

This heart, it beats
Beats for only you
My heart is yours
This heart, it beats
Beats for only you
My heart is yours

My heart is yours

My Heart
Paramore
All We Know Is Falling

Saturday, April 12, 2008

saturday night already. dang it.

went to expo after canoeing on thursday. grabbed a cab with a driver that complained about everything the government does. he was friendly though.

met Grace Vanessa and Erika there at the Planetshakers concert. Kenneth Dexter and Ian joined later.

the concert itself was awesome. on a technical level, Planetshakers and Tim Hughes were awesome. but what just went far beyond that was the testimony the speaker shared. of how a simple live concert-recorded cd changed his life forever. and i guess that really said something.

music is a powerful thing; thats undeniable. it has the power to preach, proclaim...and also to penetrate. the speaker...whos name i forgot...had built a strong resilience against christianity all his life...but that one concert altered his view tremendously. and in that same cd brought the song which compelled him to commit his life entirely to Jesus.

and just think...if one cd of true worship could make so much of a difference, what more if Christians all over the world rise up and declare the glory of Jesus?

many churches across the world have worship sessions led by bands with tremendous musical gifts. with singers with 4-octave ranges and soaring vocals. with guitarists and bassists well-versed in the most intricate of sweep-picking, slapping and shredding techniques. with drummers with a truly amazing sense of rhythm and the reflexes to push through the most insane beats. with keyboardists capable of the utmost accuracy and creativity in multiple layers of beautiful harmonics.

and yet, all of this would be wrong without God.

and wrong doesnt really mean that it wouldnt feel right...self-centered worship is, effectively, blasphemy. for the attention and the honour should be God's and God's alone. which is why it is so crucial in the position of the worship leader to practice humility, to give the spotlight to the only one who truly deserves it, Jesus.

and so, i have lots to learn.

gym on friday morning. wish Mr See would let us stay through assembly.

Joseph is turning emo. dont go that way man, its not worth it. and you dont even know what would happen.

dragonboating competition today.

woke up earlier than usual for a saturday. so tragic. walked to the reservoir and the competition site. kinda cool that it was held just outside my house.

got there and it started raining. lots of people brought umbrellas and formed a barricade. i stood behind Jason. that was pretty much shelter enough. saw these 3 girls stand behind Mr Ismael. super funny.

was put in the sec4 boat. heats were pretty close...and we just won by a close margin. semis went better.

finals were seriously cool. Mr Goh decided to coxs our boat. we had a quick prayer. our start was pretty bad and the first boat was like 2 boat lenghts away from us. but then on our long hard we went super fast and we overtook them in the end.

at the last part it was awesome. everyone just started whacking real hard. thats real team spirit.

i guess i really have to be thankful that i was given the opportunity to participate...even though ive only been part of the team for 2 months or so. i guess what i said to Tim Ng did have some truth in it. there really is a nobility in sports. and for sure, in this one. the ACSi canoeing team truly is great...and given this chance to be in it i really have to be grateful.

but dang it i only wished i joined earlier. sighh. well i only can work extra hard for lost time.

got a gold medal =) congratulations to the team...you guys deserve it!!

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

whoa. wednesday just comes so fast. its almost miraculous.

went with Joseph Barn and Lawrence with Josephs parents for lunch on friday. its becoming a norm now. cool. just feel kinda guilty that theyre always the ones treating me.

went back to Josephs house for...tuition. yeahhh. when i heard him say that i couldnt believe he was dragging me to his tuition. but it didnt turn out that bad. it was basically like one of those fun periods in school time. and so we did some debate thingy. me and Barn vs Joseph and Lawrence. about co-ed. and we were for co-ed. heh heh.

anyway during the debate Lawrence was like super competitive it was almost funny. and there was this thing he said that was super stupid.

me: being in a co-ed school allows you to mingle socially with the opposite gender and experience relationships. and while that often goes wrong, everyone takes away invaluable life-lessons from their mistakes.

Lawrence: ahhh!! but ive been rejected many many times...and i still dont learn!!!

*stunned silence*

Barn: ...thats cus youre an idiot.

hahahar.

went for FJ's cell group meeting on saturday. nice and cosy place we met in somewhere in Braddell at someones house. played this game about mafia. so fun. then we had a short worship session and some scripture sharing.

and then they had the celebration of their CG's birthday. and i felt pretty bad being there cus i was like a first-timer. but they still gave me a cake and a card and all...pretty heartwarming. now i feel like i must go back.

played pool. got owned.

canoeing on monday. tried the C. i capsized so many times its embarrasing to put it up here. but at least i learnt a little. yeahh.

...and i got a nice gash on the side of my knee.

well a new boat a new stroke and a new challenge. and obviously its gonna be tougher than the one before...but i gotta push through it!!

couldnt go for gym this morning cus my mom sounded really sick. ahh well. time for double effort.

was supposed to do 5 items today but Tim Ng just did the jump and then let the people who didnt take 2.4 run. sighhh. so i ran with them. or jogged. or walked. my walking time is 14 minutes. hahar.

so my napfa is as follows.

2.4 - 10.06
sbj - 213cm

my jumps so depressing. seriously im gonna have to train and train and train that. and my 2.4s okayy...but 7 seconds more and it couldve been like 9 something. and that wouldve looked nicer.

art spent sitting in the hot sun drawing a stupid leaf with Joseph Theodore and Ryan. ended up pretty fun after we all gave up and started playing music. and when Aaron came. and stole my iPod.

did actual 2.4 after that. i gotta get it down to 8 minutes.

seriously life is so mundane. its honestly nothing more than routine now. where is that spark that used to fill existance with something more...funky...?

June holidays please come soon.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

you wanna jam pack 2 hours of studying a day into my life. ON TOP of the time i spend in school each day.

honestly, i only have 4 hours a day at home. at most. and you want me to fill it up with doing something that ive spent the whole day doing already??

has it maybe occured to you that i dont want to be top? that class position and beating the best of the best in academia really isnt my concern?

has it occured to you that maybe theres more to life than just studies and being the model student? honestly, youve tried to do that...and look how you turned out. wowee. you know maybe academia has nothing to do with what i want to be in life.

has it occured to you that maybe i push myself with exercise 2 and a half hours a day on top of everything else BECAUSE of you and other people who dont take me seriously?

because of that time you smashed the side of my cheekbone and i couldnt defend myself against you?

because of that time where i had to submit myself to your will only because you threatened me with bodily harm.

well no more.