I give my all to You

Monday, August 27, 2007

good evening world.

im bored now. history file undone cus i dont even have a file. dunno what to do for maths. and sending songs over the com is proving...not very fast.

ive been a little depressed the past few days. and today i just realised i didnt know why i was depressed. talk about weird.

anyway...the best way to keep undepressed is to do something...sooo

im putting down the albums i really like here =)

A Beautiful Lie - 30 Seconds to Mars
One Day Remains - Alter Bridge
Slippery When Wet - Bon Jovi
Have a Nice Day - Bon Jovi
Lost Highway - Bon Jovi
Measure of a Man - Clay Aiken
A Thousand Different Ways - Clay Aiken
O - Damien Rice
Daughtry - Daughtry
Fallen - Evanescence
From Under the Cork Tree - Fall Out Boy
Infinity On High - Fall Out Boy
Good Morning Revival - Good Charlotte
American Idiot - Green Day
Blessed - Hillsong
Hope - Hillsong
Mighty To Save - Hillsong
Overwhelmed - Hillsong
Saviour King - Hillsong
Simply Worship - Hillsong
Look to You - Hillsong United
Back to Bedlam - James Blunt
Closer - Josh Groban
Awake - Josh Groban
FutureSex/LoveSounds - Justin Timberlake
Hopes and Fears - Keane
Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
Lifehouse - Lifehouse
Who We Are - Lifehouse
Hybrid Theory - Linkin Park
Meteora - Linkin Park
Minutes To Midnight - Linkin Park
Songs About Jane - Maroon 5
Absolution - Muse
Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge - My Chemical Romance
The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance
Greatest Hits - Queen
Underage Thinking - Teddy Geiger
Greetings from Imrie House - The Click Five
The Invisible Band - Travis
All That You Can't Leave Behind - U2
How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb - U2
U218 Singles - U2

theyre really worth checking out...well in my opinion, anyway.

okayyy ive been listening to too much music. ive gotta stop reclusing myself to ipod before i become antisocial!!!

anyway heres the song ive based this blog address on...tadah!!

Once upon a time
Not so long ago

Tommy used to work on the docks
Union's been on strike, he's down on his luck
I's tough
So tough

Gina works the diner all day
Working for her man, she brings home her pay
For love
For love

Tommy's got his six string in hock
Now he's holding in what he used to make it talk
So tough
It's tough

Gina dreams of running away
When she cries in the night, Tommy whispers
Baby it's okay
Someday

We've got to hold on to what we've got
It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not
We've got each other, and that's a lot
For love, we'll give it a shot

Oh, we're half way there
Whoa oh, livin' on a prayer
Take my hand, we'll make it, I swear
Whoa oh, livin' on a prayer

Livin' on a prayer!

We've got to hold on, ready or not
You live for the fight when that's all that you've got

Oh, we're half way there
Whoa oh, livin' on a prayer
Take my hand and we'll make it, I swear
Whoa oh, livin' on a prayer

Livin' on a Prayer
Bon Jovi
Slippery When Wet

yeah its an old song. from 1986. honestly i dont really like the beat and all. but the vocals are so cool!!! Bon Jovis a great singer.

and yeahh...the song has meaning and all. sorta like Josh Groban's You Are Loved...its a 'don't give up' kinda song. inspirational and all that.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

new blog address. at last.

Livin' on a Prayer was a Bon Jovi hit from way long ago. its a really nice song. really cool song. and its basically how i wanna lead my life. hopeful.

ill put it up in the next post or sometime soon.

just a random thing. i got The Invisible Band by Travis...and its a really cool album. its really worth listening to...much more than many albums you hear now anyway.

last week of school. then the holidays. then 3 weeks of mugging before the exams.

i just feel so tired.

Well love, life
one speaks for the other one here
And love, life
one speaks for the other one now
We'll try to get by

Cus ever since the minute I saw your face
Well I knew I wanted to be in that place
Next to you
And now I spend my whole life tryin
To be the one that's in your arms
And I'll try to get by

Did anyone try too hard
Well I guess I did
I guess I did alright
She'll break my heart
Did anyone try too hard
Well I guess I did
I guess I did alright
She'll break my heart

Well isn't it alright
Why can't it be
Just this once alright
It will be you and me

Did anyone try too hard
Well I guess I did
I guess I did alright
She'll break my heart
Did anyone try too hard
Well I guess I did
I guess I did alright
She'll break my heart

Try Too Hard
Teddy Geiger
Underage Thinking

Friday, August 24, 2007

and so week 9 ends.

and with it, the exams. or for this term, anyway. ive gotten my results back...well most of them.

and with that my average is now above 50!!!! ha!!! one 0 and my average still isnt a failure.

went to Josephs house after school today to commemorate the ending of exams. when i heard that we were just gonna play ball the whole afternoon i honestly wasnt very ecstatic...but hes got a really cool family...and for one afternoon in a long while i was entertained kicking a ball around a court. we went to nanyang JC and played with some JC dudes...and we did pretty well considering they didnt thrash us. that much. then we went and tossed around balls again outside his house again.

and Joseph has lots and lots of weaponry. like...bucketfulls. damn.

i just came home to an unpleasant greeting...sighhh. its rude to say this...but i wish i had his family...with my mom.

well i shouldnt complain. ive got my own ups and downs.

i got my iPod!!!!! yyeahhhh!!!! its my new best friend. we have an understanding. it plays music, i enjoy it. it plays loud music, i start jumping. it plays soothing music and i sit and stare out a window. it plays soft music and i go to sleep. it plays sad music and...i analyse the singers technique.

it plays thought-provoking music and i...uhhhh...think.

this whole week ive been thinking. lots and lots. uhhhh...even during exams. it used to be the more i think the more depressed i get...but really when i think now my mind eventually turns...blank. or to happy thoughts. thats good. yyyeahh.

okay todays song...by Bon Jovi!! its really worth a hear.

Sitting here wasted and wounded
at this old piano
Trying hard to capture the moment
This morning I don't know
Cus a bottle of vodka is still lodged in my head
and some blond gave me nightmares
I think that she's still in my bed
As I dream about movies they won't make of me when I'm dead

With an ironclad fist, I wake up
and french kiss the morning
While some marching band keeps it's own beat
in my head while we're talking
About all of the things that I long to believe
About love, the truth and what you mean to me
and the truth is
Baby you're all that I need

I wanna lay you down in a bed of roses
For tonight I'll sleep on a bed of nails
I wanna be just as close as
Your Holy Ghost is
Lay you down
On a bed of roses

Well I'm so far away
Each step that I take is on my way home
A king's ransom in dimes I'd give each night
Just to see through this payphone
Still I run out of time
Or it's hard to get through
Till the bird on the wire flies me back to you
I'll just close my eyes and whisper
Baby blind love is true

I wanna lay you down in a bed of roses
For tonight I'll sleep on a bed of nails
I wanna be just as close as
Your Holy Ghost is
Lay you down
On a bed of roses

Well this hotel bar's hangover
Whiskey's gone dry
The barkeeper's wig's crooked
and she's giving me the eye
I might have said yeah
but I laughed so hard I think I died

Now as you close your eyes
Know I'll be thinking about you
While my mistress she calls me
To stand in her spotlight again
Tonight
I won't be alone
but you know that don't mean I'm not lonely
I've got nothing to prove
For it's you that I'd die to defend

I wanna lay you down in a bed of roses
For tonight I'll sleep on a bed of nails
I wanna be just as close as
Your Holy Ghost is
Lay you down
On a bed of roses

Bed of Roses
Bon Jovi
Keep the Faith

okay the version here doesnt have the second verse cus its the live acoustic version. but i like it better...the originals too dark. and the intros too long. and the harmony on this versions beautiful. sniff.

Bon Jovis so cool!!

i dont know whats going on.
but thats probably just as well.

Friday, August 17, 2007

hey now, hey now.

week 8s over. 2 more weeks and term 3 ends. woahhh this years going by fast. im kinda getting what people mean when they say lifes short.

but ive still got...erm...60 years left. whoopee.

exam results so far. lets see...

english - 77 (sigh...not enough flamboyant words)
chinese - 46 (whoopee)
physicalscience - 64 (oooh. i expected to fail!!!)
art - 0 (wonderful. just wonderful)

my average is...46.75. this has gotta be the worst ill ever get. ever. sighh...stupid art.

well ill get an above 50 average thanks to my other subjects. but this wont look very nice on my report book.

ahh well.

i get my iPod next week!!!! in a few days time ill have a proper mp3 player...to stuff all my songs inside so my com has space. an mp3 player to bring practically everywhere so ill have any track i wanna hear anytime anyplace.

so cool!!!

i had a weird dream last night. about death. and someone i didnt think id dream of. well not in this way anyway. i woke up depressed and close to crying...then i realised i had no reason to. so weird. i met that person today and it was a little strange with those images from my dream floating through my mind.

ahh ill forget it soon anyway.

this songs old...but i love it all the same. its the one from the tourism australia advertistment.

There is freedom within
There is freedom without
Try to catch a deluge in a paper cup
There's a battle ahead
Many battles are lost
But you'll never see the end of the road
while you're traveling with me

Now I'm towing my cart
Here's a hole in the roof
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof
In the paper today
Tales of war and of waste
But you turn right over to the TV page

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win

Now I'm walking again
To the beat of a drum
and I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart
Only shadows ahead
Barely clearing the roof
Get to know the feeling of liberation and release

Hey now, Hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, Hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
You know they won't win

You know they won't win

Don't Dream It's Over
Crowded House
Crowded House

its really catchy and beautiful. its got that nice...holiday feeling.

hey now, hey now. dont dream its over.

Friday, August 10, 2007

phew.

woke up at 9.30 to go to for the choir lunch in botanical gardens. got there at 11. arrived at the eco pond. Bryan told me they were at the swan pond. walked across the botanical gardens. got to the swan pond. Bryan told me they were at the eco pond. sighed. walked back across the botanical gardens. got to the eco pond.

lunch was quite okay. then we just sat on the grass and talked about random stuff. im really amazed at how long you can talk about randon stuff for. then we threw ice. that was fun. but we didnt actually dunk anyone in the pond=(.

went back at 4. thats kinda sad.

national day holidays over. sighh...next weeks a full week again. ive just gotta pull through 3 more weeks!!

i get my iPod after exams!!

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

national day holiday!!!!

went for crosscountry yesterday. sitting in the sun for 3 hours for a 20 minute run. then went with Joseph JKoh and some canoeists for lunch. Barnabas started puking. then two other dudes got stomachaches. then i went home and started puking too. sigh...i gonna think twice before i eat a mcspicy again.

went to watch simpsons at night...it was okay. typical simpsons episode. except it was 1h40m long. haha...i love it when the Irish kid went 'no my dads not Bono'. its just 100 minutes of stupidity with a little plot.

right. rush hour 3 next.

spent a day at home asleep. i like sleeping. but i do it too much.

anyway ive kinda got addicted to this song after listening to it several times. not what id usually go for but its just so cool.

Live another day
Climb a little higher
Find another reason to stay
Ashes in your hands
Mercy in your eyes
If you're searching for a silent sky

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So die another day

The coldness of his words
The message in his silence
Face the candle to the wind
This distance in my voice
Isn't leaving you a choice
So if you're looking for a time to run away

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it there
So die another day

They took pictures of our dreams
Ran to hide behind the stairs
And said maybe when it's right for you, they'll fall
But if they don't come down
Resist the need to pull them in
And throw them away
Better to save the mystery
Than surrender to the secret

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So die another day

Another Day
Dream Theater
Images And Words

Sunday, August 05, 2007

and week 7 begins.

Friday was FOA!! Viva La Musica!! it was really hectic to begin with...but everything turned out awesome in the end =)

anyway, i went to school on friday morning for my PSci test. which i might actually do worse for than chinese. cus i forgot the colours of the rainbow. and how to draw refraction rays. and i didnt know what a pinhole camera was. so yeah, 4 exams done, 1 with a 0, 2 with a 50-60 and 1 with a 70-80. whoopee. im kissing IB goodbye =(

but then i dont have to shave my head!!! ha.

anyway i left for the CPA and then went for breakfast with Amadeus. then we started rehearsal. which was long. and tiring. i spent lots and lots of time outside being an idiot. with Reno. and Amadeus. and Leon. anyway i got to know Alvin a little. Toffler. hes pretty cool. hes a FOB fan too =)

and he sings really really really well!! i heard him sing Flying Without Wings and i was like woahhh. i had to sing along too. i was like why dont you ever sing like that in choir????

anyway i went for lunch with Ben after than. and Levin did some explaination about Helium.

then we went back for a tech-run. and i carried chairs for super long. and Stuart got mad at me =( i should learn to move chairs faster. anyway people got impatient and some went a little emo...but i was probably too overtaxed to do that so i just remained relax. the exhaustation was to relapse later.

went for dinner with Leon Aaron Ben Amadeus Reno and Hai. then went for a bath. and then changed into outfit. i kinda like wearing a black shirt.

then we went onstage!! it was a little nervy at first...but it went great!! and Clements solo in It Dont Mean A Thing was awesome. he did improvisions and all...and swung. and it ended off so cool.

next year when Clements gone we cant do that song anymore =(.

Ranjee congradulated us after the concert. and lots of people came to see us after the debrief. Phuk Loong and i talked for awhile...its really great that we still kept touch even after he quit choir.

went home with Evelyn after that. James Lai kept competing with us for a cab. hes a total retard. eventually we both got one. she owes me $5.30 now...but nevermind, im probably not gonna get it back anyway.

woah okay. that was my FOA experience in a nutshell. or the peelings of a slightly bigger fruit.

Funeral for a Friend rocks!!!! ill post one of their songs soon enough.

just give that rhythm everything youve got!!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

okay according to Phee its week 6. sigh...3 more weeks until the exams end.

today has been...eventful...

okay during choir today this person, i had no idea who, smsed me asking me who i was...then i smsed him back and said i didnt know who he was either...

then he called...and the convo was appaling...

me: hello?
weird dude: hello? (in chinese)
me: whos this? (in chinese)
weird dude: whos this? (in chinese)
me: huh?
weird dude: OH i know. youre Nic right?
me: ermm...what? no im not..
weird dude: yes you are. you dunno me arh?
me: ...sorry...i dont...and im not Nic
weird dude: dont lie!! i know your voice!!
me: huh????
weird dude: yah yah youre Nic lah!! that lesbian, right???
me: what?!?! im sorry you REALLY got the wrong number!!
weird dude: ahhh fine lah.

that was eternally traumatising...i only hope 'Nic's supposed to be a GUY. lesbian...argh!!!

and during history Jeremy tried to send me Red Jumpsuit Apparatus' album...on Mr Gavin Angs thumbdrive...and a series of unfortunate events occured

he put the album in it
i couldnt open it
he took the thumbdrive and tried to delete file. but COULDNT.
he renamed the file
the thumbdrive was then rendered unopenable.
tried to reformat it. but COULDNT.
gave the thumbdrive back to Gavin Ang. and avoided him the rest of the day.

sighhh...i just hope he likes screamo.

anywayyy...

choirs still tiring. very tiring. FOAs on friday. and today Kenneth told me that once i tore out the tickets they were counted as sold so now ive gotta sell off those 2 tickets i lent!! ahhh!!!

...can someone come buy them...?? please???

chinese exam tomorrow. studied the right thing on monday. will study the other 3 chapters later on. might pass. will probably fail.

To Know Your Name
Hillsong
Saviour King

im kinda liking the new hillsongs album. its really serene.