I give my all to You

Monday, June 25, 2007

the regions round echo the sound
of ACS forever!!

yeehar.

school has begun. it wasnt really that bad a first day, actually...it a really really weird sense, it was actually kinda cool to be back in school. look in your teachers eyes and you can almost hear their thoughts. 'oh no. another 6 months with him in my class'

welcome back from India, Tim Soon.

Bongard assaulted me for my hair. so i had to go cut it. sob. i seriously look weird with short hair.

oh well. in just 4 more months ill be free!! again!! and this year ill actually have a real holiday...not one half consumed by choir.

Yeah
What you critics say would never happen
Dedicate this sound, anybody, people said couldn't make it
To the fans that held us down 'til everybody came around

Welcome
it's here

Last summer we took threes
across the board
But by fall, we were a cover story
'Now In Stores'

Make us poster boys for your scene
But we are not making an acceptance speech
I have found the safest place to keep all of our mistakes
Every dot-com's refreshing for a journal update

I can take your problems away
With a nod and a wave
Of my hand, cus that's just the kind of
boy that I am

The only thing I haven't done yet is die
And it's me and my plus one at the afterlife
Crowds are won, and lost, and won again,
but our hearts beat for the diehards

So long live the car-crash hearts
Cry on the couch, all the poets come to life
Fix me in 45

So long live the car-crash hearts
Cry on the couch, all the poets come to life
Fix me in 45

Long live the car-crash hearts
Long live the car-crash hearts
Long live the car-crash hearts
Long live the car-crash hearts

Long live the car-crash hearts
Cry on the couch, all the poets come to life
Fix me in 45

Thriller
Fall Out Boy
Infinity On High

in class today my phone suddenly started playing this!!

haha...sorry. i guess im still living in the past. this song has so much of June memories in it.

The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead

Sunday, June 24, 2007

egad!! the holidays doth endeth!!

alas, just 12 hours and we shall all be thrust back into the ruthless cycle of education.

fie. tis but a minor concern.

my holiday assignments remain incomplete. well, somehow theyll be done before tomorrow on schedule.

sigh...but its really kinda sad that the holidays are over.

genting highlands. cebu. i really had a good time there. learning and experiencing alot. and now all that remain are memories. and various assorted items and clothes.

and 5 more chocolate bars.

this holidays really been the best ive had in a really really long time...i can only hope the path of my future comprises of streets paved with such gold.

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do?

Come
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now
This is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now
this is who I really am

Come
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look
In my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

What if I wanted to break...?

The Kill (Bury Me)
30 Seconds To Mars
A Beautiful Lie

oh i just LOVE this song. Jared Leto is so cool!! and their album is the only album ive heard that i actually feel is an improvement since The Black Parade

Saturday, June 23, 2007

oh yeah i forgot to mention. i saw Adriel yesterday morning at tampines swimming pool.
or at least i think i was him.

The Kill (Rebirth)
30 Seconds To Mars
A Beautiful Lie (Deluxe Edition)

this song has eluded me far too long!! argh!!

Friday, June 22, 2007

i do not type like a girl.

the winds of providence howl. and i pick up my pen.
ink flows.
brain cells churn.
fingers pitter-patter furiously on keyboards in desperate attemps to acquire solutions.

the holiday homework has begun.

ive done...15 maths questions since yesterday. whoopee. i figure ive still got time.

after all, Phee does take rather long to enounciate the words 'hand in your holiday assignments to Kester' Keaaasteaaar. gosh thats just like Thierry.

Create your own Friend Test here

anyway everybodys been doing these so i figured i might as well make one too =)

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

ow. my jaw hurts.

im not gonna post about what happened last night. it was just too bad.

thanks to Grace who listened to all i had to say last night. you did more than anyone would have just being there.

and thanks to Ivee who prayed for me and showed me God's messages. so sorry i couldnt come for the practice for sundays Youth Emphasis worship session today.

im really really really bored.

bored until i cant get more bored of being bored.

im tired of sleeping.

and thanks to two contributing factors, i cant eat much either.

but i should enjoy the last few days of my peace. before i return to school and Phee asks for my assignments.

wait.

oh crud. my assignments!!!

well, whatever. itll get done eventually.

a random thought...its been almost a week since we left Cebu. it seems like so long.

i wonder how Ashley's team has done there. i hope their stay has been as productive as ours was...if not more.

i hope they bring back pictures of Gerry!! i was gonna get a picture of him at the airport before we left but i forgot. sunset in the Philippines is captivating.

gosh i really really wanna go back there. everytime i hold that necklace memories of Cebu flash through my mind. if there is a heaven on earth, right now im pretty sure that Cebus close to it.

i cant bear to remove this song.

Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all You are

And I would give the world to tell Your story
Cus I know that You've called me
I know that You've called me
I've lost myself for good within Your promise
And I won't hide it
I won't hide it

Jesus I believe in You
And I would go
To the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For You
Alone, are the son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
That You are God

Sunday, June 17, 2007

"good morning, sunshine!! the earth says hello!!!!"

"mmph. dont wanna."

yeah, thats how i feel now. theres choir tomorrow...and all in all ive had and am only gonna get...1 day of rest this whole holiday.

wowee.

and i have this weird stomach ache...i feel like puking.

anyway, i went for CAM retreat yesterday...it was kinda fun...although the turnout was...minimal.

we had this private sermon by pastor Joel (Nat calls him PJ...which i think is kinda hilarious) about worship leading in the monring. then was lunch...4 pizzas and a whole lot of chicken wings for 8 people...and 2 more pizzas were ordered. i ate that and it triggered the stomachache.

after lunch we had games. we built a raft out of straws, acted out a bible story and melted frozen black ink for pieces of paper. it was kinda fun. then i met Jian Xin and Hoeyong in the fellowship deck. then Valerie came. and then Shiping. wow.

there was COP in the night...which was kinda inspirational and all. i guess it reinforced PJs point on what worship really should be.

and now i think im ready to recollect on the Cebu trip.

it really was an invaluable experience. Cebu has shown me, in 6 days, how life really is different under different conditions. singaporeans are so pampered in many ways. Cebu kids have much less. but theyre so much more grateful for whatever little they possess. strangers smile and wave on the street. people make nice friendly conversation. never before have i seen anything like that happening in singapore.

all in all, Cebu has shown me how i should care. not just to those close to me, which i admit i havent really been receptive too, but even to others i barely know. or even to complete strangers. in Cebu everyone feels welcome. its really an atmosphere we should develop here in singapore.

and nontheless, Cebu was a really fun experience. thanks to all of CO2, who each contributed in ways go make this trip unforgettable. hope we can all go again someday.

ill post pictures when i get them from Hoeyong.

and i think ill leave the song there...it holds too much meaning for me to remove it now.

Friday, June 15, 2007

taxi?

back from Cebu. i dont really wanna say much about it now...except that it was awesome. the most rewarding trip ive been on on a really long time.

CO2 =)

Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all You are

And I would give the world to tell Your story
Cus I know that You've called me
I know that You've called me
I've lost myself for good within Your promise
I won't hide it
I won't hide it

Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go
To the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For You
Alone are the Son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
You are God

To The Ends of the Earth
Hillsong United
To The Ends of the Earth

Friday, June 08, 2007

ooooh. back in singapore after, effectively, 4 days in genting.

and it was pretty cool.

4/6

left ACSi at 5.45am for genting
stopped at some place for ramly burgers =)
controversy over Gabriel and cuttlefish sparked. pure retardedness.
reached genting at about 2. sat on a big carpet while Angela gave out these pineapple tarts.
got to my room which i shared with Rodney. i couldnt believe how SMALL it was!!
went with Leon to get a replacement for his yellow shirt so he could perform. spent 2 hours and wasted RM10 before we found one.
rehearsal was held.
went for dinner.
went for opening ceremony. guest speakers replacement spoke like Dr Ong. watched several dance and choral performances.
went for debrief and went to sleep.

5/6

woken up by Conrad asking for Rodney to go to gym with him. the gym cost RM15 an hour. never would i step into a place like that.
went for breakfast.
began preparations for competition in the afternoon.
went for lunch.
had soundcheck and final preparations for the competition.
performed O Salutaris Hostia, It Dont Mean a Thing and Luk Luk Lumbu for the competition when we finished the final bit of Luk Luk with the stamp the crowd went 'woahhhh' then clapped...haha. that was really cool
went for bowling with some people.
went for dinner. noticed it was the same as yesterdays.
went to watch Shrek 3 with Mark and Glenn. it wasnt very good for a shrek show...
went for debrief and went to sleep.

6/6 - Theodoras birthday

woken up by Levin and Wen Jie on their way to breakfast.
had breakfast. noticed it was the same as yesterdays.
went for workshop 1 with this chinese dude talking about position. was kinda useful. although i didnt really understand much cus of the...erm...language barrier.
went for workshop 2 with this indo dude called Tommyanto who spoke about indo music. who was alot like Kam. called to perform Luk Luk spontaneously.
went for lunch. noticed it was the same and yesterdays.
sectionals for Janger.
went for 3rd workshop where Tommy did work on Salutaris and Luk Luk. hes very effective.
went shopping with Reno, Ben and James Lai. purchased new jacket!!!! love it...even though it cost 85.90. got Theodora a stuffed dog for her birthday. owe Reno RM100.
went for workshop 4 where Tommy did stuff for Janger. effective as usual.
went for dinner. noticed it was the same as yesterdays.
went for friendship concert where we performed Salutaris and Janger. people laughed at poor Albert when his face was flashed. applause was amazing as always.
had dose of retardedness in James Lais room. heard a poem that went like this:

one bright day in the middle of the night
two dead boys came out to fight
back to back they faced each other
drew their swords and shot each other
a deaf policeman heard the noise
and went and shot the two dead boys
if you dont believe my storys true
ask the blind man, he saw it too

or something like that...haha. its kinda cool.
went for debrief/Theodoras birthday celebration. year6s made her wear a dress!! haha...but i only have one blur pic of it.
had pizza!! although i only took one slice.
went to my room where first Ben came to stay over, then Ben Lee, Levin, Mervyn and my brother came to test out their Brarts/Hidge game...Hearts and Bridge combined. i fell asleep on the floor.
woke up at 4.14 and crawled onto my bed.

7/6

woke up with terrible stomachache.
after half an hour in the toilet, went for breakfast. noticed it was the same as yesterdays.
went to the indoor theme park with Ranjee and countless others. the themeparks kinda pathetic...but the bumper cars were fun. haha...everyone kept whacking Ranjee.
went with Mark on some rides.
bailed cus i had another stomachache. went back for another half an hour in the toilet and a bath.
felt kinda sick, so i just lay in bed and listened to music. missed lunch cus i fell asleep.
went to the lift lobby to listen to music while looking at the mountains. the scenery is seriously beautiful. i couldve stayed there for really long.
went for announcement of results. got Gold B...which was the highest any choir got =). but some other chinese school beat us by one mark.
went and played MEGAMAN!! the first game i played in...2 years? but i didnt really wanna continue playing.
went for dinner. noticed it was the same as yesterdays.
went for closing ceremony where we performed It Dont Mean a Thing and Luk Luk. poor Albert, Bryan, Ian and Douglas where giggled at. applause was thunderous...better than that which the chinese choir that got 1st recieved.
watched some dance performances.
whole choir was retarded as the closing ceremony ended. CHIJ Katong conductor applauded us and told us we deserved the most outstanding choir award =)
Clements fans show their affection during the reception...haha
went back to my room and chatted with Ben until 1 when we fell asleep.

8/6

woke up at 6 for breakfast and to clean my room. noticed breakfast was the same as yesterdays.
said goodbye to genting =( gorgeous sunrise came to bid us farewell.
arrived in singapore at 3 after 7 hours of music and sleeping.

and thats basicaly my genting trip!! well it was much cooler in reality...i really had a great time with the choir and my friends...and although intentionally i didnt wanna go for that trip, i have to admit that it would have been a loss if i didnt go.

oh well. in 6 hours i leave for Cebu with Jian Xin!!

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
and make it okay
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
and make it okay
I miss you

When You're Gone
Avril Lavigne
The Best Damn Thing

this songs kinda overrated with all the praise...but i think its still pretty good.