I give my all to You

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

whew. who thought holidays would be this tiring.

on everyday of this week, I've had multiple activities which i couldnt attend cus of other commitments i had to attend.

ARGH!!!!

itll all be over soon...genting on the 4th!!
then Cebu on the 9th!!
then CAM camp!!

then freedom!!!! well...for 5 days, at least.

and I cant believe i got shouted at yesterday when i was on the way to Jian Xins house. about my friends. i cant choose who i wanna make friends with??? my friends have treated me better than YOU have on multiple occasions...

oh well...

Baby
You've been going so crazy
Lately
Nothing seems to be going right
Solo
Why do you have to get so low?
You're so
You've been waiting in the sun too long

Colder
Crying over your shoulder
Hold her
Tell her everything's gonna be fine
Surely
You've been going too early
Hurry
Cus no ones gonna be stopped

But if you sing, sing
sing, sing sing, sing
For the love you bring won't mean a thing
Unless you sing
sing, sing, sing, sing, sing

Baby
There's something going on today
But I say
Nothing

Ohh baby sing, sing
sing, sing, sing, sing
For the love you bring won't mean a thing
Unless you sing
sing, sing, sing

Sing
Travis
Invisible Band

okay the beginnings weird. i never got over that part.

this songs kinda old...but its still kinda cool.

i heard it during the KL trip at the end of p6 in a hotel room on a chair wrapped up in a blanket infront of MTV at 3am with Cheng Liang and Vinod sleeping behind me. on separate beds, thank God. i couldnt sleep cus of all the coffee i drank!!

yeah...those were fun days...

and ive finally got the whole of Heroes season 1!!

Sunday, May 27, 2007

yes yes, everyone has a sexy voice except me.

movie marathon yesterday was pretty fun. with the aide of significant quantities of caffiene, i managed to sit through 3 movies...i finally watched Dead Mans Chest!!! haha...im so sad. now i have to watch At Worlds End!!!

and thank you Vanessa for lending me the sony ericsson CDs!!!

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

My life
You electrify my life
Lets conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to
Fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to
fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

I just wanted to hold

Starlight
Muse
Black Holes and Revelations

oh man i love this song...

and crud. my left arm hurts.

Friday, May 25, 2007

HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!

yeah...haha...i spent a whole day at home watching Heroes!! thank you Harish for those episodes!!!

...although it wont be much of a holiday anyway. effectively, i have...a week. crud.

did aldersgate performance yesterday for the second time. it really brought back memories of last years one in barker. it was pretty cool...although i suddenly lost my voice at the end!!

and i came home and found out Blake lost!! ARGH!!!! BLAKE ROCKS!!!!!!!!! he really brought something special into Idol...Jordin was good...but Blake was special!!

hope he still releases an album anyway...

and my dad decided to get home at 11pm and shout at me to open the door. well he actually shouted for my brother...but he didnt know my brother was in CHINA.

well. ill see how this goes. hope hes changed so we can at least pretend to get along now. but if hes gonna shout...heaven help him.

Shot through the heart
And you're to blame
Darling, you give love a bad name

An angel's smile is what you sell
You promise me heaven then put me through hell
Chains of love got a hold on me
When passion's a prison you can't break free
You're
You're a loaded gun
Oh
there's nowhere to run
No one can save me
the damage is done

You paint your smile on your lips
Blood red nails on your fingertips
A school boy's dream, you act so shy
Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye
Oh
you're a loaded gun
No
there's nowhere to run
No one can save me, the damage is done

Shot through the heart
And you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name
You give love

a bad name

You Give Love A Bad Name
Bon Jovi
Slippery When Wet

to commemorate Blake, i posted his version instead of Bon Jovis. AHHH!!! BLAKE!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

i am now living in a room comparable to a rubbish heap. and im LOVING IT!!!

haha...oh well. choirs full day rehearsals are somehow less stressful than those 5 hour ones...maybe its lessons that drain me.

i guess i knew it would come to this eventually.

Do you know?
Do you know?

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge
And I don’t know what else to give

I flow through my act
There's a question: Is she needed?
And decide all the man I can ever be
Looking at the last 3 years like I did
I could never see us ending like this
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that’s never ever happened to me
But after this episode I don’t see
You could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like
loving someone
that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one
to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know what it feels like
loving someone
that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know how it feels?
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one
to know the lock on the door has changed?
Do you know how it feels?

Do You Know
Enrique Iglesias
Insomniac

osorezan au revoir. ill always wish you well.

Friday, May 18, 2007

ahhh friday!!!!

haha...just got my results back today...recorded it on a small purple piece of paper i found

Art - 69 (stupid subject matters!!)
Chinese - 50 (woohoo!!! i did amazingly well for the compre!!)
History - 80
Lit - 76 (I didnt study!!!)
Physicalscience - 56 (Passed!!!)
Lifescience - 72
English - 57 (crud. haha...my summary sucks)
Geog - 67 (mmm...next time, i remember to study!!)
Maths - 72 (not good enough for Phee...haha. but at least i passed!! ill do better next term)

overall my average is...*drum roll*

66.555555555

its rounded up so its 67...well that just sucks...haha. but i dont really mind much. in fact...i dont mind at all...its just something thatll pass =)

well, to all those who got satisfactory marks for the test...SCREW YOU!!!!

haha...nah...congratulations =) youve studied hard and deserve those marks!!

and to those who havent attained what they hoped for...im really sorry. but dont be discouraged!! God has done what His will mantains. since this is over, forget about it and have a great holiday!! and prepare yourself for the joy you deserve when you get those marks you worked so hard for next term!! =)

okay...mmm

There's a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed
She asks God why
Her only son has died
And now her daughter cries
She can't sleep at night

Downtown another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight
Theres no regard for life
How do they sleep at night?
How can we make things right?
Just want to make this right

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
So let it be
Theres a love that could fall down like rain
Let us see
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
What we need
And no one really knows what they are searching for
We Believe
This world is crying for so much more

So this world
Is too much
For you to take
Just lay it down and follow me
I'll be everything you need
In every way

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
In this love

We believe
In this love

We Believe
Good Charlotte
The Chronicles of Life and Death

okay its really weird, but you could actually look at it in a christian aspect...although i doubt it was intended

in anycase, i hope this provides some encouragement for those who need it right now =)

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

argh. choir choir choir!! i need a break...a long break.

and i can go for the mission trip!! yeah...i guess God just wanted me to get my priorities right when doing His work. THANK YOU JIAN XIN for sacrificing you time for me!! i really owe you for this...

anyway, i dont have much to write about now...so just a song.

I'll rise, I'll fall
I'll fail you all
We built these cities to stand so tall
We've lost our walls
I don't want to lose it coming down
With the whole world upside down
I don't have a soul to trust in now
With the whole world upside down

Two eyes, one tongue
I've come undone
I'm no victim, I paid these dues
I came to lose
I don't want to fight about it now
With the whole world upside-down
I don't have a soul to trust in now
With the whole world upside-down

I don't want to lose a common ground
With the whole world upside-down
I don't want to fight about it now
And the world was burning out

Let's slow the evening down
Slow it down
Slow down
Please slow down
Down
Down
The stars are comin' out!

We are one tonight
And we're singing it out
We are one tonight
And we're dreaming out loud
And the world is flawed
But these scars will heal
We are one tonight

We Are One Tonight
Switchfoot
Nothing Is Sound

its one of those awesome inspiring songs...

Saturday, May 12, 2007

its my birthday!!

hmph...so little people remembered it.

3 dudes from school remembered...thanks Cheng Liang and Junyi...and Wan Feng!! thanks so much for the card!! it was so thoughtful...and i didnt get you anything even though your birthdays today too!! i feel so bad...

thanks to my church friends who remembered too =)...your messages brightened up what would have been a dead boring day...

...although it was still undeniably boring. i spend my birthday in my room more or less asleep and listening to music. i have a sad life...haha

i got $50 from my mom...hmmm...at least she understands my requirements.

and the exams are over!! YAY!! went with Jedd, Jeremy, Andre, Andrew, Hua Han and some other dudes to watch spiderman 3 after HAST yesterday...i think its pretty cool. and Peters hair was so much nicer when he was a jerk.

now its freedom!! yeah!! at least until my results come back...

anyway, im pretty okay about the mission trip now. i guess its God will that i shouldnt have gone in the first place. thats why He scheduled it on the choir trip, but i just wouldnt listen...oh well, Thy will be done, Lord. admittably, the reason i wanted to go on the trip wasnt exactly what it should have been too. thank you Gavin for trying so hard to get me on the trip even though it wasnt possible...really appreciate it.

hope i still get to go on one trip this year...

oh well...

My insides all turn to ash
So slow
And blow away as I collapsed
So cold
A black winter been away
From sight
Another darkness over day
That night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

I used to be my own protection
But not now
Cus my path has lost direction
Somehow
A black wind took you away
From sight
Another darkness over day
That night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone
And I was wrong
I never knew what it was like
To be alone

On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day
I used to be my own protection
On a Valentine's Day
But not now
On a Valentine's Day
Cus my path has lost direction
On a Valentine's Day
Somehow
On a Valentine's Day
I used to be my own protection
On a Valentine's Day
But not now
On a Valentine's Day
Cus my mind has lost direction
On a Valentine's Day
Somehow

Valentine's Day
Linkin Park
Minutes To Midnight

AWESOME SONG!! you have to listen to it!!! please!!

haha...it just has that romantic effect...maybe cus of the title itself.

i was gonna wait until Feb 14th next year until i featured this, but i couldnt wait long enough...maybe ill refeature it again then

Thursday, May 10, 2007

i cant go for the mission trip.

stupid genting trip. i never should have signed that form.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

english was pretty okay today, weirdly...geog was pretty good...but not like history.

patience...? and hope.

its LSci and lit tomorrow...lit...erm...i dont know what comes out of that...probably wont be too good. LSci is kinda okay...

Give us strength, Lord!!
were halfway through!! just a little more!!

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

yes yes, i studied the wrong thing for chinese...so there goes any hope of doing fine for that...sigh...and the person infront of me was practically showing me his answers like all the time...

...too bad the dude infront of me was Thierry

oh well...History was quite okay...i dont think i did outstandingly...but it was probably pretty good. i hope.

and congratulations on the silver, IB choir!! it was so hard to be in a new category all of a sudden but you still attained your goal. we, your juniors, are proud of you!!!!

okay...so its english and geog tomorrow..fairly harmless...but i wish we could do a compo for this term!! especially when it matters so much!! argh!! stupid summary.

3 more days!!! keep going!!
trust in God, and thy strength shall be adequate =)

Monday, May 07, 2007

okay by rights i should be yanking out my hair right now in desperation, for chinese i have not touched, and history ive touched just a little.

but hell, im still calm.

haha.

okay...i studied with Kenneth somewhat today after school. i was actually shocked he knew some of that stuff on the history notes...and i picked up some stuff i wouldnt have if id just slacked off. hooray.

then i went to watch the IB choir in the old audi...i must say theyre quite stunning...song without words was semi-complete the last time i heard it...and its done pretty well now. but its CREEPY. O Salutaris was much better than our rendition, cus obviously, they had girls. AND their tones much more beauifying and soothing when it should be, and dramatic when required. AND they didnt go flat. Luk Luk was COOL...especially the last bit when they all turned...it was fascinating. i sat there with Wan Feng and recorded...hope it was satisfactory...

anyway, hope youre all prepared for SYF tomorrow!! thought i really havent seen you work, i know that the effort you put in must have been tremendous. tomorrow, sing. thats really all that matters right now. although the words of those songs might really not mean much...albeit, for some songs, there arent words...i believe that theres still a message to convey...the message of your diligence and your passion for music and your performance.
so give it your best, and let God do the rest.

GOOD LUCK!! DO YOUR JUNOIRS PROUD!!!!

...and to 2.7 ephraim ACSi...exams!!! ahh!!!!! just 4 days!!! then itll all be over!!

GOOD LUCK!!!
God be with you to guide you through the exams!!

Sunday, May 06, 2007

EXAMS IN 2 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay...dont panic...ive still got 48 hours to memorize heck lots of chinese and history...

...actually im not really worried, for some reason. even though this exam could very well determine my fate. FOREVER.

ah well...haha...

anyway, i just comfirmed my June holiday calender...2 weeks will murder me.

4th June 8am - leave Singapore for choir trip to Genting in coach
[3 full days of grueling competition...ahhh!!!!]
8th June 8pm - return to singapore in coach after long long long drive
2 hours or so to go home and refresh, bathe, etc.
8th June 11pm - go to airport
9th June 12am - get onto budget airline to Cebu
[6 days 5 nights in Cebu!!! yeah!!! cant wait...]
14th June 11pm - return to singapore at 11.30
15th June 12am - get home half dead
15th June 10 am - leave for church and worship retreat
17th June ?am/pm - arrive home for 5 parentless days!!

its going to kill me...but heck, im really looking forward to it!! especially Cebu...

gotta save one more for Jesus

okay this songs explicit...so im going to censor the lyrics...its seriously dead cool...apart from the profanities...and it carries a good message too...so check it out!!

Turn my mike up louder,I got to say something
Light weight step it aside when we comin
Feel it in your chest,the syllables get pumping
People on the street, they panic and start running
Words on loose leaf, sheet complete coming
I jump on my mind,I summon the rhyme of dumping
Feeling the blind,I promise to let the sun in
Sick of the dark ways, we march to the drumming
Jump when they tell us they want to see jumping
**** that, I want to see some fist pumping
Risk something, take back what's yours
Say something that you know they might attack you for
Cus I'm sick of being treated like I have before
Like a stupid standing for what I'm standing for
Like this war is really just a different brand of war
Like a dozen catered rich and an abandoned poor
Like they understand you in the back of the jet
When you can't put gas in your tank
These ****ers are laughing their way to the bank and cashing their check
Asking you to have compassion and have some respect
For a leader so nervous in an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
in the living room laughing like, what did he say?

Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen

In my living room watching but I am not laughing
Cus when it gets tense I know what might happen
The world is cold the bold men take action
Have to react to getting blown into fractions
Ten years old is something to see
another kid my age drugged under a G
Taking a bout and found later under a tree
I wonder if he thought the next one could be me
Do you see the soldiers that are out today?
That brush the dust with bulletproof vests away
It's ironic; at times like this you pray
But a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday
There's bombs in the buses, bikes, roads
Inside your markets,your shops, your coves
My dad, he's got a lot of fear I know
but enough pride inside to let that show
My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine
In the back he hand wrote a quote inside
when the rich wage war it's the poor who die
Meanwhile the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like, what did he say?

Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen

With Hands Held High into a sky so blue
the ocean opens upto swallow you

With Hands Held High into a sky so blue
the ocean opens upto swallow you

Hands Held High
Linkin Park
Minutes To Midnight

ROCKS!!!!! just wish they wouldnt swear

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and expressive, you were meant for Paris.
The art, the fashion, the wine!
Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park...
You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

What City Do You Belong In?

i knew it!! i should live in paris!!

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

day...uhhh...something of hunger strike

i dont think it actually qualifies as a hunger strike anymore since i went to Jeremys house...

gate crashed there with JTang after school...yeah...it seems weird that JTang would ever gate crash anywhere. attempted to do some lit while playing around with Jeremys guitars. then his teacher came....he was quite cool. handshake and all.

then we had dinner. woah. i wish my mom would try to cook like that one day...

anyway...i can go for the mission trip!! yeah...thanks so much to DAVE TAY!!!! who managed to talk me out of my situation and found solutions when he met me looking helpless. i never thought this at all when i first met him...but through him i can see why people become teachers. i was really touched and all. and thanks to Gavin too for trying to find ways for me to go despite the Genting trip...

...and yes...im still going for the Genting trip. ill be dead tired when i get home...and then that night ill have to go to Cebu...woah.

exams are less than a week away!! intensive study now!!

Who are you now?
Are you still the same
or did you change somehow?
What do you do
at this very moment
when I think of you?

And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?

I've tried to fight it
can't deny it
Just can't let you go

Now look at me
Instead of moving on
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
and I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last

No matter how I fight it
can't deny it
You don't even know

Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
then I would never let you go

Though everything's been said and done

That I still need you
I still care about yout
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

I Still...
Backstreet Boys
Never Gone

...i think ive featured this before sometime last year...my memory fails me