I give my all to You

Thursday, February 01, 2007

my grandmas operation was a success!! thank God...shes returning home tomorrow too...thanks to all who prayed...if any did.

tests very soon!! ahh!!!!

i was bored today after doing my english and studying, so i went blog-scouting...eventually i got to Guo Nians blog. there was this article there about friendship...i just thought it was very meaningful.

Authencity in Fellowship.

how people around us have set-up defences around themselves to protect themselves from others. these defences are not literal physical fortresses but usually a barrier of apathy in their heart or just a facade to hide their naked self. real friendships are truly built upon truth and sharing. by just telling your friend a simple secret or just being natural around him or her, you make that person feel you bother to actually let that person know more about yourself or care for that person so much as to want to be honest to him or her. however, I feel that just being truthful to your friend is really really hard. which is why frenships usually stay at the surface level. just hanging out, studying together, playing can qualify anyone as your friend...the correct term I belive is acquaintance, yet hiding from people is getting so common that just being able to get out of your comfort zone and talking more to or hanging out with a person can already be considered frenship! Even if people do share secrets the furthest they get is usually about who's hot and who's not or BGRs.

- from http://tgnubnub.diaryland.com/

those words were from Guo Nians blog...i couldnt possibly have said all that. but it really struck a chord in my heart.

somehow it made me think of that message Rebeccas sister shared on sunday...it did carry lots of meaning...so im gonna put up 2 songs today to emphasize it...please read the lyrics...

the first ones a much softer one...its the one shown on sunday...

She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another
misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even knows she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see...?

Does Anybody Hear Her
Casting Crowns
Lifesong

its a nice song...how all this looks like in the eyes of a bystander

When you were before,
couldn't look in your eye
You're just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so f***** special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around
You're so f***** special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out
She's running out
she's run
run
run
run
run....

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so f***** special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here...

Creep
Radiohead
Pablo Honey

sorry for the profanities...but it really does emphasize the meaning of the song. its how all this looks in the eyes of the victim.
the one whos left out.
the one whos pushed aside whilst everyone leaves happily.
the one who has to sit alone and watch from a distance.
the one whos all alone.

it really must hurt to be the one left out...its a crime we all are guilty of...we have to try to change it